Have you ever asked yourself what your life purpose is? Or felt at odds with what you’re currently doing versus what you want or think you should be doing? I do.
I’m 48 and I don’t have the answers to my own life questions. For two weeks, since my surgery, I’ve been pondering what I really want out of life and why I want it. These are big questions and I have to tell you I don’t have all the answers. In fact, I don’t have many of the answers. Scary.
Just this morning a friend asked me, “When you leave Lebanon (we’ve been here 6 years) where will you go?” I sat there quietly biting my lip. I had no answer, no plan. Vic and I have spoke about it often, but we’ve never come up with a solid answer.
Where can we go that we can both work? Our options are all places that we feel are not good alternatives for our children, specifically Syria, Afghanistan, Mogadishu, Libya you see in our current line of work; the work is where the conflict is.
Maybe one of us could leave work behind and start a new career, ok that’s viable, but would we have to split that family apart, or would we still live in Lebanon. Is it time to move along?
My head spins and it leads to more questions of myself. What do I want to do with my life, what am I meant to contribute to family and society? How does all of that jive with being a mother, wife and a working woman?
I know I’m not alone in my questioning and that some of you might be able to shed some light, based on your own journey, on the answers to these larger questions. I know they’re within me, within all of us, but I’m struggling to bring them to the surface – into my consciousness.
Life is about choices so these questions are not to be taken lightly.
What do you want? Knowing the big picture of what we want is a starting point. I know I want life to be about having a positive impact, to add value to people’s lives, for us all to be happy, generous, loving, caring and successful.
This blog is one of the ways I hope to add value, but this, at least today, doesn’t answer my larger questions, nor does it put bread on the table.
Knowing yourself. To make these big life decisions it’s important to know who you are, what your values are, how you like to spend your time etc. Spending some quiet down time helps to clear the mind’s clutter and makes room for determining the basics.
For me, I’m a small town girl with a love of community. I love trees, water and mountains, family and friends, but can, at times, feel suffocated by both. I love being physical, reading fiction, personal development and property investing. Good food and drink are much loved as are travel and cooking, I dislike extreme climates and people who talk out of both sides of their mouth.
Can you help? Maybe you’re where I am, searching/questioning or maybe you’ve already found your way, either way if you have a resource be it a book, audios, video etc that has helped you to puzzle things out I’d love to hear about it and I’d be grateful for your inputs.
During life transitions, such as those that lead to asking life’s big questions we need to be patient with ourselves, loving and open. Knowing what you want, even though the how’s of getting there might be completely foggy, is the first step. Where are you in the journey?
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